Is the rain clearing any time soon?

Wow, it’s been a rough week. A short recap of the previous two months – I lost my job, was diagnosed with situational depression (fun symptoms like heart palpitations, trouble breathing, nausea, headaches, inability to focus), and haven’t been able to find a new job yet, I’m flat broke, and continuing my health insurance costs $834 per month. Fortunately I live with my mother, but that opens a whole new can of anxiety worms because I don’t want to be a mooch and screw up her finances. Basically pretty awful, although there have been bright quilting moments here and there. So what makes the past week so rough? Let’s see, there’s my second bladder infection in a month, being refused a job because I worked for the company briefly seventeen years ago, and, oh yeah, having my unemployment claim denied. Pretty much solid anxiety symptoms for the past four days straight. When it rains, it pours.

On the plus side, I’m plugging away at the sample quilt for the pattern I’m writing. I notified the temp agency that I’d take anything they had to offer. I’m looking into short term health insurance that will be a LOT less expensive. And I’m sending out another round of resumes. This time I’m not restricting myself to good to potentially great jobs, but shooting them out for anything that I might qualify for.

My cousin keeps telling me that there IS a light at the end of the tunnel, and eventually I’ll see it. The pessimist in me silently replies, “Oh, Lord, I hope it isn’t a train.”



  1. Wow, it is pooring rain in your life at the moment!
    I wich I could do anything more for you than say a prayer and hope you will be “on the job” real soon.
    Hang in there, your cousin is right, the light at the end of the tunnel isn’t a train…. I am sure off it!

    hugs from the Netherlands
    Winda aka Dutch quilter

  2. I just stumbled across your blog and am sorry to hear about your situation. It is hard to believe, but things will get better. I went thru something similar not that long ago and it sucks when you’re going thru it, but it does get better. Chin up and know that things will work themselves out in time! Hugs!

  3. I don’t mean to make light of your situation, because the confluence of events is staggering. But remember that scene in “Forrest Gump” where Cap’n Dan rides out the hurricane yelling at God to bring it on? He’d had so much crap thrown at him that he’d adopted this “that all you got?” attitude. I try to think about that when I start feeling like everything’s falling apart — for one, it always makes me laugh, and secondly, you get the chance to see what you’re really made of.
    We all need to channel Cap’n Dan every once in a while.
    Just found your blog last week — love your stuff, love the way you write. Hang in there.

  4. Thanks, guys, your comments mean a lot. I’m slogging through the problems, and playing with fabric is helping a bit. It’s hard to be too sad when there are so many pretties lying around!

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