Will work for food

This job search thing really sucks. I know that isn’t particularly eloquent, but I’m too tired of this struggle to make it sound pretty. I received an e-mail today telling me that they chose someone else for a position that I really hoped to get. It said they only interviewed four or five people out of the more than 100 resumes they received, so I suppose that should make me feel a little better. I had another interview this week with a similar response – over 130 applicants and I was one of five interviewed. I don’t think I did very well in the interview, though, so I’m not holding out much hope. Yes, it’s great that I make it to the top five, but that means I’m competing against others who are also very good.

What makes it especially difficult is that I’ve fallen into the jobs that I’ve had so far. In twenty years I’ve worked for only three different companies. Before this, I’d only interviewed twice, and I got the job both times. Interviewing is difficult for me – I tend to start blathering on about things that I don’t really need to talk about. I’m good with people, but it’s like my brain just takes off down the wrong road.  I have a lot of marketable skills, but not much marketable education. Plus there’s the difficulty explaining just exactly WHY I’m currently unemployed. Hmm, well, see, I f’d up at the last job, although so did the owners. Can’t really go into it (and certainly won’t here).

I’m at the point where I’m considering jobs completely outside my work experience. I’ve worked in an office for the past twenty years, and I just applied to work at a department store makeup counter. Nothing wrong with the work, certainly, it’s just not what I’m trained to do. I’m also applying for a temporary job doing assembly work. Hot, dirty, physical, but hey, it’s an income. I’ve signed up at a temp agency, but they seem to be ignoring me. I need to contact some others and see if they have anything available. I’m sending out resumes whenever I see something reasonable, but it’s to the point that I need to consider jobs that require a couple of hours of travel time every day. I’d rather stay within 20 miles or so, but I’ve exhausted all of those possibilities.

Sigh. It’s been a long day, and I’m a little down. I’ve been able to avoid dwelling on it for the past week or two thanks to the quilting deadlines, but now that I have free time, I’m back to worrying. Part of me wants to jump into another quilting project, but another part feels like I SHOULD be worrying about this, as if worrying will make a job magically appear.



  1. I understand that it is difficult for you at the moment, finding a job isn’t as easy as you think! Especialy when you haven’t don those intervieuws for years! I will light a candle and send a prayer to the Lord, for help and guidance in your hunt for a job.
    Hang in there, stay positive …
    Lots of hugs from the Netherlands
    Winda aka Dutchquilter aka (*ü*)

  2. Keep your head up. I had a rough week too, but at least your getting interviews. In my career field I don’t have 100 people sending resumes I’m up against 1000 resumes! Remember what difficult times don’t kill us will make us stronger!!!!

  3. Not sure what industry you’re in, but obviously you can write, and you can write instructions, which is basically tech writing. Take a look at elance.com…it may take a bit to get started, but if you have some writing samples under your belt already (don’t think blogs count, unfortunately), it helps.

  4. I can TOTALLY relate to your pain. I am going through almost the same thing here and I know first-hand how difficult it is to keep positive. Strangely enough, I also have a huge problem doing interviews. I get SOOO nervous – like being back in school in front of the class where I fear that they are going to ridicule me or something. Hopefully, something will happen soon for both of us!! We just have to keep our spirits up, think positive…. yada yada… 😉 all that stuff that everyone is always telling us but is so very hard to do. Would be happy to hear from you if you’d like to chat.

  5. Wow that’s rough; I know how it is to yap too much in interviews–been there, done that. Then they’ll look at me all funny. *Sigh.* I guess it happens to all of us doesn’t it?
    I will keep thinking good thoughts towards you and i know you’ll have a good outcome at the right time.

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