I need to apologize for the long delays lately in the Test Your Skills Sampler posts. Things have been crazy busy at work, and I just haven’t had the time, energy, or focus to do the posts justice. We have a quilting day coming up this Saturday and the basement/sewing area is a mess thanks to our new toy which, by the way, still hasn’t even had a practice piece loaded! Last weekend I was able to “relax” by working on the basement, and it’s almost in shape for company. I hope that I’ll do better with the sampler posts, but realistically, it may still be slower than I would like. My original schedule (fortunately, not shared publicly!) would have had the quilt finished before Christmas. I don’t see that happening, unfortunately. Most of the blocks so far already have the guts of the instructions written. After a couple more posts, Jeanne and I will have to get back into Skill Builder mode and those posts take much, much longer.
Also, I feel like lately most of my posts have been about the sampler or the Skill Builder Series, and I feel like the blog is getting impersonal. I don’t want that.
I once read that there are three kinds of perfectionists: those who expect themselves to be perfect, those who expect others to be perfect, and those who think others expect them to be perfect. I’m all three. It leads to some really stupid behavior on my part. When I don’t feel that I can accomplish what I want as well as I want, I shut down, walk away, and worry about it. I work that (often very small) thing into a giant problem. It’s a cycle – I worry about it so I avoid it so I worry more because I’m avoiding it and that makes me worry MORE…
Sometimes it’s like a big curtain comes down in my brain and I literally cannot think. I spin my wheels and get more and more frustrated and angry. The healthy thing to do would be to pick up a sewing project and focus on that for a while instead. Unfortunately I’m more likely to plunk down in front of the television and watch whatever is on the DVR for a few hours.
I generally try to keep my posts here positive and quilt-focused. I’m trying to get back to that, but I just wanted to explain a little why the blog has been lifeless lately. Thank you for your patience.